i want pink hair.
take a moment to sit and do and think nothing at all
grateful for your milk teas and soba noodles during my all-nighters.. all with smiles and hugs. y u do dis to me
been awake for 36 hours straight. what is this insanity
part of me wants to push myself just to see how long i can last, but i know in the near future i will pass out cold to make up for all the sleep i missed.
right now my mind is crazy sharp and cotton soft at the same time.. if that makes sense. i feel awake but thoughts are very inarticulate. like an uncomplicated puzzles with giant pieces that my mind can’t work around.
my body, on the other hand, feels heavy as hellz. what
sometimes my voice sounds completely strange to me. not in the ‘it’s hoarse/im sick’ kinna way. but it becomes a completely different tone, like its someone else’s voice. freaks me out man.
today on the bus someone was trying to get off at their stop, but the door was malfunctioning and wouldn’t open (typical). he tried to shout at the bus driver to open it, but he was too soft-spoken.
i was mega sleep-deprived, through 6 hours of class, one hour of step class, and starving.. i needed to get home. quite desperate to crawl under my sheets and hide forever. with a bowl of sausage spaghetti.
i’ve also seen people miss their stop because of something like this, which could just ruin someone’s day. usually i’d just keep to myself, but then i was starving, so that’s a different story. i was hungry for justice. I raised my voice and told the bus driver to please open the door. it was a bright, rich tone that resonated through the autobus cabin, demanding instant cooperation. coercive, but kind. it was definitely not a voice i have produced before. perhaps it was my fresh-off-aerobics lungs. i felt so overwhelmed with power that i kept my head down at my phone for the rest of the bus ride. got home, cleaned kitchen, did some christmas shopping, then ate pasta. biggest non-issue of life.
aren’t weddings kinna unnecessary? doesn’t change the relationship. you have the wedding, then you jus be like. well k that was fun. lets go back to bed then have another day together.
i know you dont believe in birthdays or anything happiness-related, but it doesn’t matter since youre far from everything and everyone you know anyway. exactly what you wanted/deserve. at least i still remember.
week ive been crazy putting things on my ebay wishlist. today i purchased some one them as a post-exam-pat-on-back. the thing im most excited for.. involves yarn, cats, and warmth. FAVE & RAVE
before finals. the weather was SUPER nice, so i thought it must’ve been a great omen…..tum. HAHAHAHAH #anatomicalpun