Late nights

In the past, 3AM was the horrifhour that offset sleep-conducive thoughts. I begin to question what I have in the present, what I had in the past, what I really want, and ramble through memories to try to put together an answer. But that’s been long gone, because you give me a peace of mind.

There’s safety in your companionship like no other, and I’m very grateful to have met you.

Flossing

I know it really should be a regular habit, but I find it really hard to keep up. I brush my teeth right before bed, and I already take loads of time to do that. The last thing I want is another thing stopping me from crawling under my covers, snuggling up, and wasting another two hours on my ipad.

Lately I’ve been picking it up again, and I just want to document how great my teeth feel so I wouldn’t forget later. Even after an intense brushing session, I would always be able to floss something out. Sorry if that got a bit too visual. Instead of picturing it, try imagining it kinesthetically; it feels amazing, and comes with a great sense of accomplishment.. you’re welcome. Or, relate it to a social setting: “Good riddance, I could have gone to bed and slept with that gross thing!” Ya, you know.

You can do better, just keep up your good habits and never settle for a disgusting mouth.

whativelearnt #34628093486

I used to be super addicted to facebook. My fingers would just naturally type in the url without a thought. 

For the last exam period, I deactivated it for a month. At first, it was really hard, and I felt so disconnected from the world. How would I know where/what John Doe has eaten in the last month if I missed his photo album?! 

I didn’t reactivate it until a couple of days after my exams, because I didn’t feel the need or urge, and I’m glad I trained myself to be not so dependent. I used to browse my newsfeed every 5 mins that I’m on my computer, and look through albums that have interesting covers, no matter who they belonged to. 

Cutting myself off from facebook helped me learn that I..really don’t need to care and know about everyone’s lives. Some people actually share way too much, but that’s what made facebook so funny. It was only so interesting because I don’t know much about a lot these people, but we’re just facebook friends and acquaintances in real life, and seeing what they post/upload has a certain degree of novelty. But I don’t really care anymore. A few years ago I got into reading celebrity gossip, but it quickly lost its novelty because their lives literally had zero impact on my life. Similar concept.

I didn’t need to have their info to make chatter with other people; I never want to be the girl that only/mostly talks about other people’s lives. If people wanted to know, they can read it themselves. They wouldn’t need to talk to me. I want to have conversations where we are able to share emotions and knowledge, and when it’s time to go separate ways, we will feel that it was a relationship worth having, time well-spent, and we have become better people. 

I have to admit though, it’s a really good and easy way of staying connected. It’s just that lately I’ve been more lazy/busy to do so, and when I really wanted to reconnect, I just called people out for little get-togethers at cute pubs and cafes. Facebook is a good tool to stay connected to a huge network of friends, but I don’t have that time anymore. From experience, having friends is really quality over quantity (no shit right?). This may seem really obvious and simple, but I didn’t begin to realize that until late teen years. I hated high school life because I always felt the need to please everyone around me, but obviously that could never happen, and it upset me. Later years, I began to decrease my circle of friends because it felt healthier to surround myself with people that actually supported and taught me things from their perspectives to help me become more. I was so much happier because it began to illuminate more of what I want and need in life. 

Thanks for reading my little ramble on pursuit of happiness, and I hope it brings a little light to your insights : ).

Love,

Viv